My Strength Or Stupidity?

Why did I ruin what was once perfect?
Why did I listen to them?
Why didn’t I follow me?
Why?

She held her head high
I will not cry
She walked away
When all I wanted to do was run in his arms

As soon as he was out of her sight she ran, tears streaming
Did I really have to do this?
She felt as if she could die forever
And my pain was sharper then any knife could give

She almost had him
But that was why I had to let go
She felt physically ill
My head was bent over the toilet bowl for hours

Why did I take it all away?
Why did I let them influence my choice?
Why didn’t I keep you next to me?
Why?